i’m currently on my way to Seoul to get my hair done. this time feels different from other times though, because i’m not going for a relaxer. i’m headed to go get hair extensions!!! ㅇㅅㅇ
this will be my first time in my life to get hair extensions, not counting the clip ins i made for an asymmetrical effect a few years ago. i’m getting a sew in, and i’m kind of nervous, but mostly really excited~~
my parents aren’t particularly fond of weave, but i’ve been fantasizing about dying my hair for the last 1~1.5 years, and double processing my hair in its already fragile state would be the nail in it’s coffin. i’ve made a lot of progress with my hair health and growth in the last year, and i don’t want to give that up, but at the same time i need a change. i have basically had some version of my hairstyle my whole life, and i feel the need to break free. after all, getting a sew in is a protective style when done correctly, amirite?~ i’ve decided to get hair on the cheaper end of the spectrum to see if i like it before opting for another color. if i like it, i’ll go into color from there.
can u see me on here justifying it all? ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ but when it comes down to it, i’m just tired of worrying about being stared at, fulfilling stereotypes, and caring about what other people think. i just wanna do me, i’m ready. wish me luck!♥
and Mother Bear? please don’t fly over here to whoop my behind. i promise i am paying my student loans!!!!! please pray for me that i don’t end up getting taken out by my moms guys, my 궁디 is tender ㅋㅋㅋ
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i went to the wedding last Saturday. i started to regret my decision the closer and closer the taxi drew to the wedding hall, but by then i felt like there was no turning back.
Bella, her friend, and i entered the wedding hall and immediately found Bella’s bf Duckie. he introduced us to his parents and then we took pictures with his sister. his sister was so beautiful, and she was glowing. we then got envelopes and went to the side to put money in them. Bella caught me standing there scanning the crowd subconsciously. she gently told me not to look for him, and i snapped out of it and concentrated on writing a message for the happy couple on my envelope.
soon after that the wedding started, and it was really touching to see how blissfully happy the couple were. the groom was shaking in nervousness with an endearingly goofy grin on his face. we were really excited for them.
after the wedding we went to the buffet room and gorged ourselves on food and soft serve. i somehow managed not to spill anything on my dress or white cardigan which i pulled on in the buffet room. the entire time we were at the wedding hall, there was no sign of Gent.
apparently he didn’t come at all. i was conflicted about whether it was a disappointment or a relief. was it really such a bad thing i didn’t see him and have a war of emotions i that had to conceal? maybe not. i couldn’t help but feel a bit disconcerted but Bella told me that even though it wasn’t the mission that i had planned, it was still growth that i felt ready to face him, whatever scenario arose. i felt better after hearing that, because she’s absolutely right. though i was nervous, i was ready to face him even though i knew it would be difficult. realizing that in and of itself made me feel like i had already taken a big step in the right direction.
overall, it was a lovely wedding, and i enjoyed celebrating with Duckie and his family. i’m determined to keep on keepin on♥
so, there’s a wedding this Saturday, Bella’s boyfriend Duckie’s lil sister is getting married. i saw the pictures and she looks gorgeous, and her future hubby is so adorable!~ congrats to them both!! i was suprised to even warrent an invitation to the wedding as i’ve never met her, but Duckie insisted that i should come with Bella. normally i would say yes without even thinking, but what made me hesistate to agree to come is the fact that Gent will probably be there.
i’ve been going back and forth over this in my mind, trying to decide if going would be a good idea. part of me just wants to see Gent, to just look at him with my own eyes and see how he’s been. the fact of the matter is, as much as i don’t want to i still care for him. the other side wants me to show up just to show him what he’s missing, to help stir up any regret that might be hiding somewhere in his mind. either way, i wasn’t sure if i was emotionally comfortable with going there and dealing with the worst: him showing up with another girl, OR me tripping and falling in the buffet room and spilling a plate of 만두 and soy sauce all over the bride’s beautiful 한복 …
in any case, i’ve finally made up my mind and i’ve decided to go. i have a new dress that i could wear [i definitely didn’t buy it for the sole possibility of going … but really i did], it’s time for a new manicure, i got my brows waxed earlier this week, and i’m feelin positive about it. i talked about it with Mini Coteach [my main coteach this year], and she had some important wisdom to impart on me:
wear whatever fragrance i used to wear when we dated [guess that includes hair oil ㅋㅋ]
don’t wear my cardigan into the wedding, just keep it in my purse, as my dress has a keyhole 포인트 on the back [i have developed a cardigan addiction since coming to SK, which some friends and fam hate]
should go with the pink alligator clutch
ponytail would prolly be the best way to show off the dress
have plans set up for immediately after so i have a reason to escape/don’t go home to mope
accept that he may not be there, that we may just miss each other, or he may come with someone of the female persuasion
Mini Coteach also said that everything is a next step, that i’m not dressing up for him but instead dressing up for the next special person to come into my life, who i may meet later that day at a party i’m going to. she also said, “the most important thing is that you enjoy the moment”, and she’s right. the purpose of the event is to celebrate the union of Duckie’s sister and her boo with their friends and family, and i should focus on that and enjoy the moment.
while i was worried before that going and seeing Gent would reopen healing wounds, i’m now starting to feel like it will help me heal. i plan to show up lookin flawless, support the happy couple, Bella, and Duckie, eat my buffet food and be on my merry way. by that time, i’ll have done all i could for ol boy, and if he doesn’t realize what he gave up then i should feel sorry for him. he couldn’t handle the awesomeness to be had, and i should carry on and find a man who can. the future is here, and whatever happens, happens.
We have to remember that there are a lot of positive and great things about us. These very things that attract people to us don’t diminish because someone leaves us. We just need to focus on making them shine brighter, to attract someone who isn’t afraid of a little light in their life.
summer is here, and so are mosquitoes. if you’re like me and have been angrily waking up to mosquito bites in the middle of the night, you need to stock up on insect bite ointment. since moving to Korea, i’ve always used 쿨 which has a nice menthol-y tingle which helps make the itchiness go away, but i’ve recently gotten into Wild Tiger Balm.
it’s a balm that’s ”safe and reliable treatment for the symptomatic relief of muscular aches and pains, sprains, rheumatism, insect bites, itching, lumbago and headache”. it’s from China, and Clever Coteach [who introduced it to me and the sis] said that it’s pretty popular in Korea. before Big Sis left, we swung by 국제시장/Gukjae Market to pick up a couple jars, but make sure to say “호랑이연고” as thats what it’s commonly called in Korea. they were only 3,000원 each too. not bad, not bad at all.
the texture is kind of like a pot of lip balm or thin Vaseline, you can see it on my knuckle in the bottom left picture. it seems like there are three kinds online, Wild Tiger Balm, Red Tiger Balm, and White Tiger Balm, but i have the first kind. the all natural ingredients and Clever Coteach testimonial have me sold tho, i will start trying it on my aching muscles after i start back at the gym in the coming week.
yup, it’s that time! signing up again. any day now. aaaaaaany day now.
don’t worry, i am not beginning a descent into drug addiction or anything of the sort, but i feel like i have to keep myself numb and distracted at all times in order to go through the motions. i’m blessed that i have fam and friends who show me nothing but love, but i’m frustrated that a month and a half after the breakup i still think about Gent all the time. it’s draining, and i don’t want to feel this way anymore.
maybe i’m also especially emo now because Big Sis is also leaving Korea tomorrow, her visit is over. Stevie will come visit from the Philippines on Friday and stay for several days which is also a welcome distraction, but after he leaves then what? i can’t live my life in a string of distractions, i know that, but i’m also scared to be alone again.